e last wk of research..i so cant wait for it to end seriously. i feel drained of life i duno y too. silly ssy. as i stare at all e nmr spectrums in front of me, i realise hw much i duno. i wonder y did i want to do research in e 1st place. i feel so stupid n clumsy. unable to analyse anything, unable to help, causing ppl ard me nothing but trouble all e time. i so need a break. to recharge.

i was watchin 星光5 just now. they had to choose songs relating to their life stories. 阴影会留着。小时候的自卑不会一瞬间消失。你要一点一点地克服它。so true. but i guess not many will understand. i dun blame ppl when dey say she can do this y cant u? she so blah blah blah unlike u. i only wish i can be as gd as others or that i can close my ears

im so tired that i dun bother explainin anything anymore. whatever it is just blame it on my stupidity n incompetence. its that easy. i guess i need to work on my selective hearing skills.

hw i wish i can shrink till i disappear into thin air nw...