a yearly event. to get pissed off and affected each time. comments. how not good i am. family blah blah blah. actions. treating me like ive got some virus on me that will jump onto you the moment i open my mouth. i dun blame you. if im so good, i probably wouldnt hear these. if we are so good, there shouldnt be more than 2 commenting. you never knew how much your words and actions hurt. i can only say thank you for letting us know how lousy we are. when you are around, i forgot how to talk naturally. every word, every actions can be an attack. doesnt matter. its a yearly event. next year e same thing will happen. again and again. strong? that was never me. everytime u try to hurt us, there needs to be someone there to hold e rest up. im just doing my job. listening to others, pretending that im never affected, being e clown to cheer others up, laughing everything off. just like cockroaches, lizards. i am scared of them too. but e fear can be masked so easily. numbed and detached.


yes i will bear in mind from now on my stupidity, and how much people hate me. inferior has taken over confidence.

its this easy to break down a person's wall and so hard for the person to build up e defence again. vulnerable